November 4, 2008
I just turned 18 last August. Its not a big deal to some people. Too bad ‘some people’ don’t include my parents. My parents are so afraid—no, that’s an understatement—they’re paranoid that their children will grow old alone. They want us to have what they have found in each other. Love and the commitment they share.
One night they talked to me, they asked me about what I thought about the future, my future, and you know parent questions. I wondered, what happened? Why are they suddenly asking me these things.
Before I could ask, my mother sat beside me and took my hand. My father stood beside her and said, “You will be engaged”
I was shocked. No, I was beyond shocked…I was petrified. I suddenly lost all of my hopes, my future…my dreams. The joy of living the single life to the fullest crashed and burned just like that.
And I’m only18…
My mother caressed my hand and whispered, “It’s going to be okay, I promise”
How can it be okay?!! I wanted to scream but I seem to have lost my voice and my soul too. I felt tears stream down my cheeks but I didn’t care. I didn’t care about anything anymore. The world could end now and I wouldn’t give a damn. I wouldn’t even notice.
“There are people coming here tomorrow” my father’s voice felt so distant “One of them is your fiancé”
I shuddered when he said the last word
“They are going to live here…permanently”
I wasn’t surprised.
I was displeased. Annoyed and angry even. Because I didn’t like the idea of living with people I don’t know. That night, I slept hoping I would never wake up again.
The next day, hope faded away as the sun shone behind the curtains of my room. I woke up feeling tired and somehow disappointed. I went down towards the kitchen and fixed myself a cup of coffee. Then I went straight towards the computer and played ‘Kansha Kangeki Ame Arashi’ I don’t know why, maybe because I get a sadistic kick out of the ‘Smile Again’ line or I just waned to be comforted by my favorite band.
I heard lots of talking outside, I didn’t bother to see what the commotion was about. Kansha Kangeki was on repeat for the 3rd time then I heard the front door open and the taking voices grew louder, I realized they were talking in Japanese.
I looked up and I saw them coming down the stairs…first Sakurai Sho, then Aiba Masaki followed by Ninomiya Kazunari, Ohno Satoshi and Matsumoto Jun, then my parents who I hardly noticed, in the company of the hottest guys in the known universe.
I felt my jaw drop and my eyes widen.
‘Smile again, I’ll smile again’ the song played for the 4th time. They all grinned when they heard the song, Sho came over to me and asked me if it’s my favorite song. I nodded mutely even though my Arashi favorite song is A.RA.SHI.
I could hear Nino asking where we placed the PS2.
“They will live here from now on” my father said
‘They’ll live here??? I’m getting married to one of them??
‘WHO?????????????’
And then………..I woke up.
AAAAAARRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why did I wake up at the most important part of the dream??? Why did I wake up at 4:24am?! WHO AM I GONNA MARRY!????????????
WHY GOD??? WHHHHHYYYYYYYY???????
*calms down* After I woke up my brain just said Oh My God!! Write this down before you forget!!
*sigh*
gawdamnit!!! Who am I gonna marry?!!!
